Saturday, September 24, 2011

Something is Wrong


At times my legs feel funny and I struggle to decide which one should support me, as I stand shifting my weight from side to side. Something is wrong.

At other times I question the temperature. “Is it hot in here?” I may say, as sweat crowds my brow, weeps down my sideburns and spills onto my shirt. Something is wrong.

Whether slow or fast in its advance, eventually I feel its weight; it pulls me down and drains my strength and wisdom all too quickly. Something is wrong

Time is slow now. I discover I have downshifted from a participant to observer. I can’t report my findings very well – Energy is spent, even moving is difficult. Something is wrong

In many ways I’m not with you. I am standing beside you – Two steps back. The seat of my chair – Below you on the floor. You are a movie I’m watching, silently from my seat. Your caring words, lines in the script – Heard by me without reaction. Something is wrong.

You narrow your eyes at me, focused now on my struggle. Some might ask if I’ve been drinking, but you know me. You know that something is wrong.

You know me, so you know something. You know what is wrong.
You save me because you know me and know that something is wrong.

3 comments:

  1. Wow Doug, this is so powerful! Without any definition I believe I do know what is wrong, but I can see multiple interpretations. Nice post!

    ReplyDelete
  2. I just read this to Gary and his comment was, "A writer and a poet!" Nice work...

    ReplyDelete
  3. After a particularly bad insulin reaction (low blood sugar) I felt compelled to describe what the experience is like for me. For me the bad ones often take the form of an out-of-body-experience. The poetic format seemed to write itself. Thank you for your kind words.

    ReplyDelete